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| Although my bestest friends r Aaron, Christina, and Price, they have only been my best friends for almost 3 months. So who was my bestest friend? <BELLA> If u have noticed my previous postings or heard me talk bout her, Bella was my bestest friend out of anybody. We part ways because I tried to take our friendship to another level and for about 1 3/4 yrs we were a lil closer than friends, but we never became official. So I decided to ask her once and for all to be my g/f and she said no. I had prayed that her answer be God's answer for us and that she would call it from her heart. And well she didnt believe we were ready. 1 3/4 YEARS!!!!! What else did she need? oh well, we were goin in diff directions. (she went to cali) So we have barely spoken since that day and now we dont speak at all. Sadly romance mixed wit a friendship is a formula for disaster unless romance is the net result or you can handle bein friends again. In my case, we got to a place of no return, so it was too hurtful for me to continue. So sadly we stopped talkin and stopped bein friends. Losin Bella, the possible g/f, wasnt that bad becuz im used to losin chances wit gurls, but losin Bella, the bestest friend, was devistatin and im really now feelin the effects of it. My new bestest friends have stepped up and picked up where she lefted off, and Christina has def become a bigger influence on my life over the last year by fillin the void of great female friendship. I dont want to lose that so I will neva try to complicate that friendship wit romance. Plus her friendship means a lot to me. Peace and Much Luv 2 ya | | |
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| It's been so long since I last posted sumthin. Time flies when ur inconsistently enjoyin life. This past season was another good season for me. This was a spiritual breakthrough yr and next year is the ground-breakin, critically-acclaimed junior season of me at college. Jus like my last post, we lost a lot of ppl @ MVNU. The biggest lost were Jay Black, Ben Stafford, and Zach Wilson. I had a lot of friends in this yrs graduatin class, and it will not be the same w/o them nxt yr. I pray blessings for all those who we lost this yr and pray sumtime down the line we will cross paths again (see u at the crossroads). God Bless! About 6 yrs ago I was nominated to president of my National Junior Honor Society and 8th grade class (as one position), and I reluctantly accepted the nomination after bein forced to do it and I eventually would win and do nothin in the position (aw cmon i didnt want it). In a sense, history repeated itself wit me cuz I was sumwat forced to run for SGA and I didnt want to do it. But Jim Singletary and Peggy Oldham talked me and Christina Castillo into it. Though I resisted the pressure, Christina decided to run for prez. As she looked for sum1 to run wit, I decided to do it when she couldnt find any1 willin to do it. So we campaigned together and honestly grew much closer than we already were as co-workers to friends. She would go on to lose (i took it a lot harder than her), and sadly i won my unopposed election. Now in a tough SGA position, I have to reach down into myself to not flop at this position like I did 6 yrs ago. Will I be able to be effective in my new role or will history repeat itself, again? Find out nxt season ..... For those who dont kno, lookin at my last post, me and bella WERE close, but we did part ways neva enterin into an official romatic relationship. I wanted to be in a relationship, and she felt we werent ready. I thought we were considerin almost 2 yrs of courtin but she still didnt think so. So we parted ways, and sadly not on the most positive terms. I still have faith in her to be an actress, but i jus hope she makes it. For bella I pray God will bless her. But sadly I must heal my damaged wings and move on towards new heights. I did make a song wit that one guy who was a Christian rapper and Im awaitin possible tourin dates. Air and Price r now my best friends (tied) w/ the dismissal of bella. Sadly they r in the midst of a situation w/ possible implications so I wont see that much of them nxt season and they r RAs and Im SGA. We might get the bike trip togetha so that will be great. Christina has now become my official best female friend, a role once held my bella, and I want her to go on the bike trip but i kno that its her decision, I jus kno she would luv it to go. Shes probably the most amazin person I have ever met in my life of ppl my age. I hope we stay friends 4eva. As for me well life is about to take off and I must hold tru to my heart! Peace and Much Luv 2 ya!!!!!!!!!!!! | | |
| For a summer that started very crappy and got good only a couple times in the middle, it is turnin out to be a great endin to an eventful summer.
At first I couldnt wait to leave becuz my fam was trippin and bickerin but it has calmed down. Me and my brother's relationship is way better than it has eva been (thank God). Its almost to a point where I cant even get mad at him anymore. My new-born nephew smiled at me and Im startin to think that he actually likes me, lol. He still cries but when I hold him most of the time he stops (Im not changin him tho). My mommy is kinda angry at everyone right now but I still love her and ima miss her. My sister moved back in and its good to see her everyday instead of once in a while.
Me and Bella r doin great. She is def my best friend in the world, Aaron and Price r second to her tho. We hung out a couple times this month and we even went to Carlos' weddin in June. On our way to the weddin, I heard an actin agency holdin tryouts and I raise the volume and Bella realized wat I was doin and listen, so now shes workin, goin to college, and goin to actin classes. Im happy for her and I support her becuz I kno she can make it. I really do love her!
Im lookin forward to this new school yr, if im still single I would love to meet sum new gurls comin in. We lost a lot of ppl from last yr but most of my best friends r comin back esp Aaron and Price. I really plan to do sum music collaborations wit Zach, GL, and this new guy who is comin to campus who is doin sum Christian rap thing. I accidentally joined the Gospel choir so u will see me perform wit them along wit sum of my poetry. WHAT?! They baited me sit subway and the next thing I kno im singin. Last season was a good season, I expect this one to be even betta. For now, peace out! | | |
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